Nicro & His Head At 7:20 pm ( Day 28)

as im writting this
the pc im using is shit
its a good dell
but it lacks alot of intel
but fuck computers there not the answer
anyway
its the first time in a longtime
where my body is fiendin
i miss mary jane
people call me an addict for this bad bitch
fuck yeah
she treats me better then those chicks
nah
i cant say that cant make love to my treez
maybe orally but thats everybody's story
its now 7:35 and im heading out at 10:30
i wish as i walk in this snowy city
full of weed smokers and hashish breakers
makes you think why its still snowing
lets see some green has i approche my work area
cuz working nights in this non-intoxicated asset
is as boring as a clock tinking 4:20 in the wee
hours of the non bud smoking morning

Nicro & His Head at 6:05 pm ( Day 26)

i miss my blog
sometimes
but today while i was away
in this building full of students
i felt like writting a million poems
of nothing and everything that doesnt concern
anyone and everyone
maybe the lack of treez made me feel this way
or the fact that all those girls would never be mine
or it could be my mind is changin
wait hold up what the fuck am i saying
it doesnt make any sence, excuce me common
but what i really feel like yelling is
FUCK!!!!SCHOOL RULES!!!!
but i regress to my normal laidback state
and feel my inside boiling knowing its the weekend
but shit i forgot to by my school equipements
which ill probably lose in 2 weeks
but fuck it not came here to be organized
came to this faculty to get a wifey
:)
and mentally mess up teachers like blenders
i mean as im looking at this beginning school year
my mind,body and dark soul is ready
to face you pretty ladies
and you bitch ass niggas
it wont be easy
but pussy prevails in my autobiography

Nicro & His Head At 3:50 pm (no day)

this is a quick thought about today
school is amazingly boring this year
but that beautiful female that sat down to me
when i was half asleep and half horny
made me wonder
wow
what if
nah
nah but what if me and her were meant to be together
and she talked to me started to open her self openly
but wow those eyes made me wanna cry
anyway i promised i would let love find me
not the other way around
even if im the type to get around
ill stay calm and collected
as her beautiful lushish may i add
flawless
figure and body posture
makes me hungry for whats underneath
im not superficial
well today i guess so :)

Nicro & His Head At 8:26 pm (Day 25)

LONELINESS
i feel it everyday especially right now
my ideals are to contreversal
my perfect women is out of reach
the fact that i fall in love in 5 minutes is ludacris
cant control my feelings for the opposite sex
cant control my fiending for afternoon sex
so i stay here
lonely like fucking with your hand over and over again
lonely like everytime i watch a romantic movie
and wish that the end would be mine in a couple of seconds
but sadly life isnt that happy
well mine actually is pretty scary
but i find it really funny when i see complete losers with 2 or 3 girls
i could do the same but thats not just me
cant abuse a women's love with the intent its meant for nicki
sometimes i wonder if im really going to be alone for eternity
damn didnt i write a post about my lonelyness a couple of months ago
shit back to the same feelings of rejection and desperation
if any girl reads this and knows me personnaly
then fuck you for not giving me a chance to your freedom
i would rather have your heart then your legs open
yeah its a shame im not a player or i would win every season
im a emo at heart a hippie for life and a lover for you
but nobody loves me for what i present myself to be
i wont change my ways for fake love
these deception of love at first sight makes me sick
cant continue to fail in love
the yearning for loving is rising in my heart as everyday goes by
but the denial of this feeling makes me wish the yearning was limited
or annihilated

Nicro & His Head At 8:03 am (Day 23 or 24?)

im going to school now
im not that happy not horny
just serein
just thinking about the old faces & new menace
beautiful teachers and superficial girls
after class chronic and before class talkshits
being late like i am today
being early like every 2 weeks
i didnt talk to my one-night stand baby im feeling kind of edgy
now im horny
but i tried calling her yesterday she didnt answer is she refusing me
did she really had that much fun to forget about nicki
nah thats fantasie i told her during the physical meeting
do you want to be my friend ?
all i got was a wet yes and hickeys all over my body
but back to the matter of the clock tiking to my late school meetings
i wish myself a good half school year
i didnt fuck up last year because of my over confidence
but now im all alone in my zone and the school's no smoking zone
the entity of this blog is happy school accepted his request for locker sex

Nicro & His Head At 5:12 pm ( Day 23)

sometimes you need to let it out
im not talking about crying
crying is really good
but im talking about writing
letting everything flow like a river on a paper
or on a blog whatever makes it better
im a sucker for love thats a big mistake
i see the difference between bitches and hoes
fine women and superficial tramps
but when the heart is connected for more then 5 minutes
i lose my identity i feel like im hers even if her name isnt mine
i literally lose my mind with millions of fantasies and ideas
i try to stay as normal as i can be but inside
its a 24/7 factory
everything turning,WILDING!
if in my 5 minute physical attraction is worth something
then tell me (pause) dont be shy i dont want you to lie
my heart has been broken so many times
that you will have to fly to find the pieces
there buried in every women's heart that told me i wasnt the one
from montreal to amsterdam
some people call me crazy for having this supernatural feeling towards women
most of them tell me "fuck a bitch and let her go she aint nothing but a ho"
i know but still cant you change somebody for the better
maybe inside she yearns for a lover
or atleast the feeling of sucking one guy's dick
damn i wish for a women to love me for me
not for what you see wish isnt me
what you see is whats inside me
the kingdom of your heart
thats why sora cant say i love you to kairi
i hold unconditional love behind those bloodshot eyes
and this thoracic cage of lust,love and alot of blood
just get to know me
and i will reveal that love is real

Nicro & His Head at 12:36 pm ( Day 22)

bloggy bloggy im not ashy just took a bath smelling like vanilla scented vaseline
ok im just trippin because its a good morning
but something startled me while i was washing
i noticed multiple red marks on my coco brown skin
its not the demons they only attack my hands
but it had a pattern like it was going for my neck
didnt have it on my back
so looking in the mirror trying to figure out a logical answer
i flashbacked to yesterday with the little lover
and i rememberd what my friend told me
shes a vampire homie!
oh shit all this treez and alcohol made me forget
she was trying to eat my flesh
the bite marks are hers
for this mutilation my body endured with pleasure
im going to ask her for another bloodsucking fantasy hour

Nicro & His Head at 7:22 pm ( Day 21)

excuse my unflownominal post
but i feel like ghost who's hungry
my eyes are blurry
i feel like im out of this world
my mind, for the 1st time, isnt in a hurry
im so relaxed right now not even horny
just contemplating on my day which started ok
but finished oooooowwwww! let me elaborate
my friend asked me if i was in the mood for compagny
i said yeah who is going to give it to me ?
she told me a mystery chick
so knowing me got in the shower quicker then water
arrived at her crib i saw her
her
i have no idea who she was but she looked like a lover
or was it the intoxicated aspect of excess fused with sex
then something happended
something that makes her never want to invite me again

but damn i shouldnt have done that on her bed...

Nicro & His Head At 7:06 pm (Day 20)

today is a day to feel alive
first black president needed that for a while
maybe i dont put enough obama in my rhymes
but he's in my heart not the notepad
i praise him for being an inspiration to our futur generation
if he was my homie id cry beside him
but im miles away so ill do it in front of my TV
but back to another main subject i must reflect
i have trust issues thats not new news
but i have a bigger problem
its with women that keep doing it for a bf that ruined it
when i mean ruin i mean killed the relationship in a heartbeat
either by fucking another women or just straith lying
to a women that gave that asshole a 100%
i say in pure disgust i hate your fucking guts
cheating is one thing but mindblowing that chick to oblivion
is something i cant standby and watch even if it was a one night
i love women to much for other perverts to fuck up there innerself
i may do it because ill bandage it after a lenghty crying session in my mansion
and if i cheated then she may cheat back YES! im unreal like that
ill absorb the pain then deflect it on a mortal kombat game
we have to be fair
didnt they just elect a black president? :)

Nicro & His Head At 2:27pm (Day - 19)

ok back like a new terrorist attack
not fresh not new just the same guy with no brew
techinically im a new man but i feel like a old dam
ready to break like the pressure that water puts on wall and furniture
20 years old like janet's flop album
im still the same motherfucking introverted smoking drugs & running for fun
cant let the two and zero fuck up my cartoonish flow oh HELL no
im thinking that maybe if this blog follows then ill put a track near march
just me spazzing out with a blunt and sweaty forehead
probably start my song with the vision of a halle in the new magazine
yeah im mad horny while im writing this autobiography
but today no love making just straith inhalling with my homies
oh and by the way i didnt get no present as usual its all good tho
im not fiending for humain connections from people that destroyed my innoncence
just let this black emo write his mind on his black background
i dont know if im finished
ill probably post another post in a minute

Nicro & His Head At 1:38 am ( Day 18)

i like being refered to as a crazy motherfucker
half of the girls in my life told me the same page over and over
nicki,whats wrong in your head did u got drop off a cliff like goku
maybe but thats the reason i recite emotional haiku's
or the amount of treez that my body process wouldnt you agree?
or it may be the fact that i know more about nothing then you
you wish you knew but your superficial tendencies keep you in the dark
while im moving torward the darkness with no flashlight just my brain to ignite
do you read books for pleasure or pain ? i read them to understand the reading i learned
to maintain my intelectual balance while still watching cartoons every morning
but tv is slowly boring me maybe reading will take over like a symbiote to eddie
but back to the fact that im crazy
the girl that told me that was with me all day just chilling and smoking haze
and for absolutely no apparent reason i get called out of order
im sorry but im no vending machines elaborate on what you meant earlier
she meant that knowing me has been a pleasure and a disaster
mentally i helped her by fuffiling her wild fantasies
but mentally i scared her with my conversational entities
physically i made her feel ugly
but physically i gave her more love than she said i love you baby
so am i that crazy are my ways of expressing myself that uncommon
well maybe but if i wasnt the only being with extra-terrestrial feelings
screaming when your leaving or kissing you when your crying
then why for our 50th time you bought me a present ?

Nicro & His Head At 12:36 am ( Day 17)

LOVE
is the wackess 4 letters in the english dictionnary
and probably the rest for the other translations from this devilish word
if your reading this and your love is blooming then your disgusting
i dont remember the last time i got real love with real feelings
smashing other niggas girls isnt a beautiful world
yes its fun and pretty exciting but what about the emptyness its brings
the knowing that her heart belongs to him
not her body tho :)
but back to my hearbroken flow
actually not heartbroken but decayin
no im not lying im really that out of order
how i wish to find the women of my dreams
but im going to be 20 and still banging bad girls with gangbanging boyfriends
why cant i find a chick with a good book on the bus just relaxing
or in the middle of nowhere with only our eyes to detect the right directions
with love brigther then 10000 yellow flowers
nah im just nightdreaming because im still not sleeping
i actually wish i could find my mystery rescuer
so i could cry on her shoulders
and let her cry on my face so your tears taste the same as water from a dying river
the extraordinary lover is right here
but you will only notice me in a million light years

Nicro & His Head At 11:56 pm ( Day 16)

my girl told me i was a sucker for pussy
wow and i was about to take her to extacy
the reason is pretty simple and filthy
wanted her friend to come home so i could get dome
but NOOOO she had to give me attitude and kill my peaceful flow
so i was like cool can i still eat whats between your legs?
if theres one thing love is a dirty look
either its from doing good or because i act like a fool
when a girl gives me the kreesha turner look
my mind gets shut down like a closed book
i feel weird inside like i was struck by a genjutsu
which is exactly the effect of mean eyes from a girl with perfect tights
but back to the verbal and physical attack i didnt get
all i wanted was a threesome in the sanctity of your marijuana scented room
but all i got was cold shoulders and it was even colder outside
joe's girl called him a loser
mine calls me a motherfucking liar with horny tendencies and amazing lyrical abilities
when it comes to getting what i want with minimal interactions
maybe thats why we tried bondage without any objections
or made your boyfriend bag us bags of treez for our interstellar adventures
but whatever are the reasons
one day a threesome has to be underway
thank god she doesnt understand english
because i think i would get a spanking with her dog's leach

Nicro & His Head At 10:31 am (Day 15)

i got fired from my job
the same job where sexual encounters were encountered
same job with a green teeth monster and a retarded motherfucker
officially im still working but personnaly they want to kill me
i RIPPED that work area like it was my playground
with me,everybody has to leave happy
even if you dont have no money
thats the way i am u need to feel good from my hands
so you didnt even had to worry about food in my proximity
my nature is that of a robin hood but really cool
but its a recession so rich people get a lil help too
feel me? , of course you do why wont u feel an atruists nigga?
anyway
if she had a great big smile she got a free smile back
maybe her phone number but normally a box of timbits
employes told me i was trippin , customers call me there doughnut king
but in reality i do this to make you have a good day not a bad day
the feeling you get when everybody pisses you off
and when you come in to grab a bite
not even sure if you have enough to light
and if you manage to see me
then dont worry
ill ask you how was your day , are you feeling ok
no your not damn thats a shame cant let a sorry face go to waste
so take this its on the house just get out with a nice bounce
and i still get the same reaction
are u seriously considering helping a stranger in exchange for nothing
yes i am dont ask me why just do like u gave me the money
and have a good day in our fucktop city :)

Nicro & His Head At 11:03 am (Day 14)

WOW
for the first time ever in my 19 years of life
woke up to find no cartoons on fox and thats wack
remember when 6 am was your alarm clock
when cartoons were more then marketing schemes
but actually shows with values and respectable rules
im not dissing familly guy for being rude
fuck it im talking about saturday mornings
not every fucking evenings
remember Power Rangers
what about the dexter with the laboratory
or x-men fighting magneto in every show
oh and cant forget the mouse on tricked out bikes
and the bipedal shark that still had there huge jaws
every saturday, eyes open,cereal in hand and no yawns
i could go on for 1000000000000 seconds
because even if i dont remember what i did 2 days ago
cartoons from my chilldhood are ingraved in my heart and memory
sorry if i forgot your birthday i was watching earthworms play with jim
one of my favorites were gargoyles that came out during the night to fight
or when sonic had siblings for 3 seasons
or the 90's spiderman with the overthinking peter parker
or batman always ready to kill or give a helping hand
or mario and luigin rapping like...oh wait it was the 90's
the point of this post is to show my utmost pain
regarding my commercial sponsored morning
but i close the tv and said fuck it lets read

Nicro & His Head At 12:06 am (Day 13)

my favorite song
is always welcomed
like a girl flashing her thong
but back to my favorite song
it changes from the ages
i remember
when i was younger
trey songz talked about choices
and i felt conflicted with that
because i too had to make some choices
between my girlfriend or my best friend
i annoyed them with that song to no end
coulndnt come to a conclusion
in my mind i already knew
but saying it was sickening like somekind of flu
so i always told them
listen to choices on repeat
and feel the beat

on the other hand...
mf doom talked about red and gold
that was the first time i changed a little
the sound was unfamilliar,the rhymes were out of order
no more gun talks only problem was washing his mask
if you give me the instrumental to red and gold
then you know its going to be bold
because you know true facts or presented
and the xp was three quarters tinted
and 4/5 was converted
see its stuck in my memory
more like implanted by king gheedora
maybe he needs me when terra attacks earth
and the only thing that can stop it
is a red hero/villain and his gold
tainted introverted sidekick with a mean roundhouse kick

3rd is the unheard verse
from a artist i respected
im sorry to say but he was recently in a hearse
this song is so underground i wonder how i dug it up
its called Searchin by 5 elementz
but who's rappin is none other then Proof
i cant prove it to you
but its all true
this was before D12,before Em
and this song is good as hemp
mostly because smoking on it
will make you wish you didnt have a girlfriend
that you wished to be alone and find your love clone
somebody that feels you for you not for what they think of you
that song makes you feel like love is near
that its around the corner
or over the counter
where ever it is Proof did his thing
and its always going to be my morning ring
because im still looking
sorry i mean
searchin

and to finish
i present my number 1 shit
for the moment it haunts me
really
because it reflects me
its actually pretty scary
that someone who isnt me
doesnt know who is nicki
knows exaclty how i feel
it made me sad and happy
happy to know theres atleast
one person likes me
but sad because if he's like me
then he isnt happy
and maybe never will be
only thing he and i need are a women to fufill these needs
no im not horny just being real with my blog so sorry
but back to the mystery beat
the first line started with
"everything i love leaves"
it struck me
made me kinda of sick
knowing someone would say that on a track
then he didnt stop compared himself to a tree
that why he leaves before they leaves
wow that just struck me i had to rewind the mp3 like crazy
didnt even work that day was just amazed by this
and the worst thing ever ever ever
is i just got out of a disgusting break up
when i heard it in full motions with no commotion
my eyes bled of convulsion
i felt the pain he went to
not my pain but his pain also
and he didnt stop there oh no
he even finished with a little message
"all i do is feel love in my heart"
which if you understand me
made me want to scream
all my thoughts and actions
were portrayed by some random guy
in every complex and intellectual way
after all of this i use that song as a stepping platform
meaning if you want love from me
then you need to be opended
im not a lil wayne nigga
nor do i bumb t-pain in my trunk
and please spare me the gucci
"so sorry if your fealing victimized its my mind"
that wasnt me that was the melodie
that charles hamilton wrote for somebody
asked him who she was but he didnt respond
its ok tho
talking about your groom running away
will make every lover feel indiscribable
pain

Nicro & His Head At 1:25 pm (Day 12)

i destroyed my ipod
while closing the front door in frustration
when i found it
it was bent out of shape
but i took a vow
no more ipods and lets examine why
i love music dont get me wrong
but earphones all day long?
im already addicted to weed
and now a spinning wheel
what about people touching/dropping
oh and mostly
DONT PUT YOUR FINGERS ON THE SCREEN
something i screamed for 2 years
but when it died i wasnt really sad
i was more like oh ok well here's the dro
but after the high was gone i realised
that i lost my 3rd wife
to a door that i choose to close
i spent months without internal melodies
couldt walk outside further then a couple meters
realised that life as very strange noises
but i will subsitute everything for a chorus

Nicro & His Head at 1:40pm ( Day 11)

never read a porno magazine
blame the fact i was raised by a women
but got caught at 7 watching late night tv
which i recall perfectly
this young caucasian heading for dubai
met with her ebony lover at the trainstop
kissed her with a passion that i didnt comprehend
then they talked for 5 minutes and i was greeted
to a slow bass drum
a weird feeling started to arouse this little boy
then the white girl started to take her clothes off
and there was no arguments
the black girl took off her garments
looked into each others eye with lust and intent
then they kissed for 10 minutes
maybe 15 seconds but hey im only 7
my heart was rushing like a highway
i felt a joy that would only be acknowledge
if i could of jumped between them
anyway
back to the 80's porno
im still watching it
with eyes as big as the sea
my vision is stuck at the door
but more importantly the TV
then they moved on the bed and thats when it got wet
now my eyes were blurring up
blood rushing to my head
when she started licking her clit
thats when i became sick
the prototype of quagmire
was born
while watching vintage porn
after a lenghty session of scissor
they came on each other
that made me really really horny
maybe thats why im so kinky
so out of this world with my fetish
actually thats the reason why
i wont lie
if i watched that porn again
i would probably die :)

Nicro & His Head at 11:50pm ( Day 10)

im 6 days late
just like school
always missing important dates
teachers use to tell me
punctuality is a necessity
yeah ok i dont really care for that
im taking my slow ass time like a turtle
but fast in this tortuous life
so im running at my own pace
not fast not slow not mediocre
nor better then they others
just a 1,2 step on this ice & pavement
so for this new year ill be moving a little slower
the reasons are to be determined
maybe its the next car im buying soon
or the rides from cheating wives
or the lazyness that comes when
you disgress your motivation
for drugs and sex
thank the sun & moon
classes are coming back soon
so i know to get up at 6
get ready for a sick twist
open the front door and
what the hell is this
this chick horny and ready
just staring at me like
come get this pussy
sorry honey today is not ok
i have to go to school
and write my introduction essay

Nicro & His Head at 3:30pm ( Day 9)

i dont know why im happy
not happy haha go crazy happy
but more of a serein sence of happyness
meaning my introverted inner self is smilling
for many reasons
maybe the new year will be better then the last
i say better personnaly not socially
because socially 0.8 was great
a black president
thats the only thing i remember
blame short term memory loss
but my long term is upgrading
anyway
for me
2008 was wack as hell
the last post i did said what i needed to be said
simply i didnt feel like writing grimey
but this is my personal space
(wish i had one)
but its free so let my rage fill this blank page

last night while i was heading for work all relaxed
this wonderful women asked me if was emo
i told her yes but not mainstream
she screamed of disbelief
looking at this black dude with a cut in his hand
she wondered
is he really black emo ?
left without a final word
but told her go chek out my blog
maybe she will understand the memo
or when she sees me next thursday
we will discuss the effect of my defection
to this dark and twisted mindset
from the happy go-lucky guy with no order
like a set without intellectual construction

next stop the familly house
up in another suburb
saw all i vow to hate
but was it the festivitis
was it the act of forgiveness
did i feel bad for past actions
or did i regret my reactions
i still cannot piece this puzzle
the yearning of a familly called me
maybe i needed love from the one that always gave it to nicki
or was it just a manipulation
to be in a good vision for this new year's horizon
i dont really have an answer for my dissagrement
with my 5 sences + the spider sence
i felt like a pawn of my lying self
i died a little bit inside knowing others were happy
but they wont ever know that unless they track
this blog ,print it , read it and destroy my art
but they wont go that far
they already know im a thinking time bomb
fuck the match just step on my path
and this bomb will slowly evaporate a gas
of nitrous oxide
you wont die
just die of laughter, reminds you of the joker :)
im that lethal with morals and ideals
but people that FUCK UP my inner peace
makes me wonder
if i was alone would i be writing on this blog
of course not i would be on the bus with the pad
just writing random notes listening to the fakepod