As the light from my bulb is slowly going numb,
i need a light to feel somekind of fright , 
i had intercourse with night and never called her back, 
maybe thats why i sleep on the grass with my bare ass , 
i live with monsters but they never pay rent , 
ive spent alot of my time to chase away these demons ,
but they wont hear it for them im there 2nd hell , 
my mind settles them with warmth and lust , 
like im on the street corner reminiscing of a slut , 
sometimes i fell and they helped me back up now they stare at me and wish me luck , 
they dont care there mind are elsewhere concentrating of helping themselves and there selfish intentions , 
and my heart is pierced from spears dripped in toxins ,
so antidotes wont save my soul , only burn more holes

I have never been good at explaining clearly how i felt about you , sometimes i thought
I was in in a lust other times in love but even if my feelings could of never been revolved
I am sure from the deepest part of my heart that i miss you
That looking in your eyes was the most profound , intense and painful feeling i've felt
A boy like me never deserved to be in your presence
The essence of a beautiful woman in love with a self destructive addict
Was something i could never understand but i never objected
But i wanted to stop me from hurting you
Im sorry
There is no way for me to apologize for everything
I love you
I will die loving you

Nick Moody & His Mind At 11:07 Am

how do i feel ?
why does my heart still feels like steel
liquid nitrogen couldnt even flash-freeze
missing her cant even be a concern
i was burned before birth
marked as wanderer on this earth
never finding anything forever
its not even sad
its only a feeling i've always had