I have never been good at explaining clearly how i felt about you , sometimes i thought
I was in in a lust other times in love but even if my feelings could of never been revolved
I am sure from the deepest part of my heart that i miss you
That looking in your eyes was the most profound , intense and painful feeling i've felt
A boy like me never deserved to be in your presence
The essence of a beautiful woman in love with a self destructive addict
Was something i could never understand but i never objected
But i wanted to stop me from hurting you
Im sorry
There is no way for me to apologize for everything
I love you
I will die loving you

Nick Moody & His Mind At 11:07 Am

how do i feel ?
why does my heart still feels like steel
liquid nitrogen couldnt even flash-freeze
missing her cant even be a concern
i was burned before birth
marked as wanderer on this earth
never finding anything forever
its not even sad
its only a feeling i've always had

Nick Moody & His Mind At 6:23 pm

addicted to Miami-esque beats
im wondering where the fuck is the heat
my balls are frozen on a daily basis
and my brain's not responding
im fucking tripping
but its not that bad i had worst
where you were literally stuck in your house
looking outside with big eyes thinking is this a lie
is the snow covering the swing and slide ?
so im complaining for nothing
but shit its a turn off

Nick & His Mind At 8:16 Am

as im being blessed by the herb essence
i have to move on cant stay idle in the middle of the game
getting killed by CPU's is abuse
and im tired of getting used and bruised
so time for some drastic changing
actually , morphing is the proper term for this occasion
cant keep overthinking every instant
while being impulsive at every instance
i have to balance my energy like my yīn yang ring
i want to go back to just smiling and chilling
playing It Was A Good Day at 6 in the morning

Nick Moody & His Mind At 6:42 Am

this demon was caressing my skin with her nails full of sin
because of this soothing feeling
i began to lose consciousness with a grin
my memories started to take the form of spirits
my lust , my dark thoughts and my crushes
all glared and passed judgement
at the sight of this entity
that lives of the night and uses women's tears as water and beer
as apparitions of this distorted mind started to get wild
i had to take a deep look into my good side
and summon the angel that made me fly
her beautiful wings flapping the obscurity out of my vicinity
suppressing the evil chakra in a white bra
and as i was freed from my needs
she turned around and shot me
until i couldnt bleed
as my eyes were pouring out blood and tears
i wondered what pushed her to make me disappear
no answer its time to go
but atleast i get a peak