Nick Moody & His Mind At 10:06 Pm

i got a job
9 am every morning
and its still in Montreal's downtown
the next station from my last workplace
receiving calls like an automatic dialer
but getting payed like this should be an atrocity for me
cant wait for Thursdays the bank will once again be my best friend
but i prepared special surprises for everybody who took care of moody
depends from a night out smoking and drinking
to a hotel room during weekends
but hum im still on curfew from sexual contacts
hopefully ill keep my mind focused on working
give concrete meanings to my statements
but what should i do with the first check ?
buy an ounce smoke it all  at once ?
take my friend to the living heaven i promised her last evening
sadly im still on quarantined from this sex disease
but ugh the women at the job have me on a leach
i keep turning my head trying to reach
but i stop my impulsions from asking them to eat
or i could but i would just instigate a conversation
and stare in her eyes subconsciously
trying to bring her closer to me
here we go again with the fantasizing

but now with a suit and tie to act right

Nick Moody & His Mind At 3:58pm

my mouth is dry
because i was outside glaring at the sky
watching the clouds
it felt like peace like my mind was at ease
but ugh i need sex
this deal was cute in the beginning
now i walk in the street fiending
i want to scream to any woman fuck me till i reach heaven
but soliciting  prostitution in my environment
isnt a good starting statement
summer is approaching im hot inside
my body wants to heal from a girls tongue slide
im searching for my summer love
like last year when i met that dancing dove
it was all love
until summer ended and autumn began
she was already gone before the 1st leave struck the sidewalk
and i was back alone + it started to get cold
so this summer i dont care if im fucking Indians to Inuits
lets go downtown grab a suite no suitcase boxers and bras are useless
have hardcore sexual intercourse leaving your body numb
and speech impediments like we were born dumb

Nick Moody & His Mind At 11:58am

why are you trying to hurt me
didnt you know my heart is acid
corrosive loving burning your intentions
only a strong woman could purify my demise
cure me from this hole the corrosion unfolded
but you lack everything to physically heal me
its a shame im too nice to let you go
fly away freely your a bird searching for some food
am not good which is why ill burn your inside
and i dont plan on being the perfect man
im scared of commitment
i wish i could find a girl who lives in my world
but knowing me it'll probably end in tragedy
even if im a nymph i havent been fucking sinced?
too long for my mental to recall this troublesome craving
going to smoke a little Mary Jane
only woman i can kiss and not get dissed

Nick Moody & His Mind At 11:44 am

ugh i miss my mornings
when i woke up with a joint and a girl yawning
now im sober and i get up and no slut slowly sinking in my sheets
shit! the deal i took gets me shooked daily
like waking up from a bad dream then diving in a good nightmare
im so horny as im writing this entry im scared of my hands
they developed a mind of there own satisfy me without my consent
cuz i cant get high off a woman's scent
unless im in the bus and her breasts sweats outside of her vest
thats nasty talk

nick moody feeling the blue's of not touching any women
until when? sometimes after i forgot about the lust of 1 night lovers
cant i just grab a flower and pick the petals until i stand still
in shock that i took the last one which permits me to atleast lick
but no i have no reason to lust woman after her encouraging statement
but im fiending

Nick Moody & His Mind At 8:58am

so if i start the 26th
15 more days of being sick and twisted
or not hiding it for the general population
have my own cubicle like i was in the office
didnt see a Dwight or Jim but saw a cute red head reminding me of Pam
im not aiming for a boss like Michael
this job is serious far from a mental hospital
have to dress according to the business
which transcribes to suits and dress shoes
even when i was heading out of my interview
big eyes were obstructing my view
so during these 15 days of self-destruction
i activated a time bomb ready to explode at any second
the built up pressuring like the active volcano over mount Fuji
sadly im in RDP not japan chilling with Yakuza's
thinking of getting a Irezumi
with the shape of a dragon surrounded by 1000 virgins
hum my lack of sex
thanks to my friends deepness
inspired me on finding happiness before fornicating

but the built up of sexual pressure is too much
i want to scream in pleasure
have my body feel leisure and laughter
wait discard my last statements
it shouldnt even had existed
im just fiending for a woman at this very moment
and the orgasmic physiology of her breasts pressing on my chest
here i go again daydreaming about fucking
oh how i wish i could kiss a girl this evening

Nick Moody & His Mind At 9:54pm

so i have to be at this interview at 11 am
knowing me ill probably arrive before the sun rises
the imminent excitement that embodies my mental
got me thinking positive for more then little moments
if i get this job
nick moody will change once again
the beginning of a new life
the old life turned benign

redesign my wardrobe
take off all of her clothes
pop so many bottles
smoke soo much dro
save for tommorow
GO IN THE STUDIO
im not greedy but my rainbow colored money
has me thinking skittles arent real candy

Nick Moody & His Mind At 11:21pm

in between the fornication and socializing

the distress call sent out by my friend
because of her bad judgment
your one of the smartest girl i know
and you were so high in the sky
your dream of flying over the plains
you wanted to play a unfamiliar game
i would of stopped you if you called my name
but i had to find out the hard way
you did something that the system cant forgive
no matter the ammout of tears you shed on my lap
i cant help you more then attack the government
you giggled and told me shut up stupid
as we drove the long boulevard
i told you i wont let you go far
the world is starting to go dark
as im a nobody who's alone
i wont let you face this mess on your own
will dive into the realm of the unknown
together

Nick Moody & His Mind At 11:07 am

i rarely sleep before my mind dwells in the indepth of my existence
sometimes im watching my frights come to life and caressing me all night
the entities in my body implanted a dream last night that made me cry
my psyche sent me message via a flight of fantasy that landed exactly in my spirit
left me numb and thinking , couldnt of been calculated in seconds
without further interruptions the cinematic hallucinations of a living demon

i was walking in a school yard
all the kids were jumping and screaming in excitement
i was wondering  if i dreamt of the right place
then i see some friends telling me to come to the apartment to smoke and dissipate your problem
so i go with them but as im walking i came across a circle of individuals
one of them was a woman with a cold stare
my friends went and talked to the group of acquaintance and i glared at her
her , long black hair silhouette of an assassin who's having some leisure time
beautiful lips , everything that makes me tick , a trick that my mind implanted
so as im magnetically envisioning me and her on a bed of flowers
my friend asked her if she would like to join us for some afternoon bud
she agreed and walked in front like a stallion
walking toward a red horizon
so we get to the apartment
my homeys are playing Halo 3 while rolling 2 blunts simultaneously
shes with them breaking down the treez
im in the kitchen thinking shes my only woman
forget every females i dated , every love that could of gone far
i wanted to die in her arms i wanted to spend my days
explaining why she satisfied me in every ways
so they call me in the living room ready to light that boom
the environment smelled of weed and cold fresh air
while she was watching television but her mind was in the air
my friends understood that i had to tell her my statement
so they went there separate ways acting like they were planning something
we were all alone
me and her
the line between reality and fiction never became so painful
we kissed without a word
but that kiss ... i still feel it
my lips were trembling
i felt ... good ... at peace ... at ease
my beast had its eye closed to the whole overdose of this adulation
then the room started dissipating

i saw her vanishing
remembering that this was all a moment